I have posted two comments on last Friday's post (the 12th) for all to read. These comments state "Countdown until Ryan Sundermann is released from prison.......3 years! Whoohoo!" I am sure his family will be glad to have him released from behind prison bars so that they may once again be a family and do family things. I am sure they wish they had him there for holidays, special occasions, and just in normal everyday life. We, the victims of his crime, would love to have our Abby back home with us too. We wish we could have some sort of "countdown" until we could hug our little girl again. We are not as lucky as Ryan Sundermann's family. Our time without our Abrielle is determined by God and not by the justice system. When we talk to our daughter, we cannot hear her voice. We cannot hear her laugh, cry, or even breathe. When I want to to hold my little girl, I cannot. The only way I can touch her hand is by the mold CMH made us. I can only run my fingers through her hair by the locks that were saved for us before the funeral. When we go to visit our daughter, we can not physically see her. Instead we see the impression in the grass from where she lies beneath. The only way I can see her beautiful smiling face is by looking at pictures. In 3 years we will still be missing our Abrielle in Heaven, that will not have changed. We will miss our little girl until we are able to see her again.
I would also like to make it known that we want this blog to focus on the Foundation ~ the good things that it is doing, the kids it is helping, the needs it is fulfilling, and the lives being touched. We want this blog to honor our daughter's spirit and memory. We want good to come from this tragedy that has happened to our family. We will sometimes share heartache and tears on this blog with you in the hopes that maybe it will help others understand the pain of losing a child and in the hopes it helps ease our own suffering. We do not (and have never wanted) this blog to focus on Ryan Sundermann. So, to those who seem to think otherwise, please stop causing the gash in my heart to bleed even more than it normally does. Instead, join us in making good come from this.