Monday, August 31, 2009
There is a quote in the article from Sheriff Darren White that I would like to share. "Driving while intoxicated is one of the most violent crimes, randomly killing or injuring someone in Missouri every 1.7 hours. These tragedies are preventable when drivers make a simple, smart choice not to drink and drive." This quote echoes what I said in my victim impact statement and I hope people listen.
Friday, August 28, 2009
Thursday, August 27, 2009
With her buddies Cole and Sage.
the whole class with their masks. Abby is fiddling with hers.
Abby is just off to the side.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Yesterday was my birthday. The 33rd anniversary of my birth. I did not see much reason to blow out any candles on this day because the only thing I would wish for would not come true. My little Mommy's Girl can't rejoin her family and give me a big birthday hug. There are no other wishes for me right now.
It's days like these that I just don't understand why I was spared to keep "celebrating" these days while my innocent little girl couldn't even celebrate her fourth birthday.
Mommy misses you every day Abbers!
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
Monday, August 24, 2009
Friday, August 21, 2009
I came to have a peek.
I could see that you were crying,
you found it hard to sleep.
I whispered to you softly
as you brushed away a tear,
"It's me, I haven't left you,
I'm well, I'm fine, I'm here."
I was close to you at breakfast,
I watched you pour the tea,
you were thinking of the many times
your hands reached down to me.
I was with you at the shops today,
your arms were getting sore.
I longed to take your parcels,
I wish I could do more.
I was with you at my grave today,
you tend it with such care.
I want to reassure you,
that I'm not lying there.
I walked with you towards the house,
as you fumbled for your key.
I gently put my hand on you,
I smiled and said "it's me."
You looked so very tired,
and sank into a chair.
I tried so hard to let you know,
that I was standing there.
It's possible for me to be
so near you every day.
To say to you with certainty,
"I never went away."
You sat there very quietly,
then smiled, I think you knew ...
in the stillness of that evening,
I was very close to you.
The day is over...
I smile and watch you yawning
and say "goodnight, God bless,
I'll see you in the morning."
And when the time is right
for you to cross the brief divide,
I'll rush across to greet you
and we'll stand, side by side.
I have so many things to show you,
there is so much for you to see.
Be patient, live your journey out ...
then come home to be with me.
Thursday, August 20, 2009
The first day was the day it all really hit me. With tears in my eyes, I took Mady for the first day of fourth grade. It was so difficult to see all the parents walking the younger kids into school, excited to start the school year. I wish I had my little girl to walk in to the first grade. I wish I had that little girl for Mady to escort in and show the way to. I felt like Abby was sharing tears with me this morning as the rain started on our way in to the school. I know she would have loved to be a first grader.
Wednesday, August 19, 2009
Thanks Avery for generously sharing your birthday with the Foundation to help other kids!
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
They did a great job telling about the honor we received in going to the ceremony. Thanks Jacki!
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
THANK YOU HEART OF AMERICA TRACTOR CLUB!
Monday, August 10, 2009
Other events included in the newsletter were ~ St. Luke's Appreciation Luncheon, Celebration on Life Ceremony in Kirksville, the Annual Scott Phillips Memorial Golf Tournament, Autumn and Friends Memorial Run, the Fifth Annual Dakota Lawrence Volleyball Tournament in St. Joseph, and the Second Annual Cut Short Ride.
Friday, August 7, 2009
Today was school registration that made the grief come flooding back. Despite my wonderful friend providing me with a much needed distraction while there, the fact was still in my face that I was just registering one girl for school instead of the two I should have been.
Tonight has been spent with lots of quiet time. I spent almost an hour just sitting outside on the bench by our memorial garden. I sat there crying as I listen to the wind. Mady has always told me that she can hear Abby in the wind, so I guess I was hoping to tonight too. Instead, the breeze gently blew, drying the tears that streamed down my face while two butterflies and a dragonfly danced in the sky.
This path that I'm on right now seems to have many curves and crossroads in it and I am still not sure where this path will lead, but I am on the journey just the same and that today is the best that I can do.
I apologize for my rambling tonight, but sometimes these emotions are just too difficult to put into words.
Wednesday, August 5, 2009
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
(Elly kept trying to take a bite out of all these hot dogs tied to strings.)
Thanks to the Elks and all who organized, and helped with this event!
Monday, August 3, 2009
79,747 patients waiting for a kidney transplant
15,789 patients waiting for a liver transplant
1,494 patients waiting for a pancreas transplant
188 patients waiting for a pancreas islet cell
2,208 patients waiting for a kidney-pancreas transplant
213 patients waiting for an intestine transplant
2,785 patients waiting for a heart transplant
86 patients waiting for a heart-lung transplant
1,932 patients waiting for a lung transplant