Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Sorry if they are hard to see, I still can't bring myself to get out of the vehicle, so the pictures were taken from my car.
~ To answer the question in the comment, Marc trimmed the grass around the area into the heart shape for the last 2 years. I think we have it trained now because this is how it looked yesterday with no trimming yet. ~
Sunday, March 29, 2009
When I awoke this morning, it was like a weight was on my chest and the tension in my neck was so tight I could hardly turn it. It felt like it was a chore to even get out of bed. I was glad to have Becci here because I knew Marc was feeling it too. It was as if there was an elephant in the room and no one wanted to acknowledge it. I choked down the tears until Elly came out with Abby's stocking hat and gloves. They were on our cedar chest from Christmas pictures 2 years ago and I just couldn't bring myself to put them away. That's when they started flowing. Later I spent some time in Abby's room, which I still can only bring myself to do maybe 3-4 times a year. I looked at pictures until they became unbearable and had worn myself out from too many tears. Beth came out later along with my parents, which was a nice distraction for all of us. This also gave Marc and I the chance to go see Abby just the two of us. On days like this when we take Mady, she's the one acting like the grown-up and consoling us. While the comforting is nice, I would rather she grieve too.
Some friends came by later, which was such a nice surprise. They knew better than to call first because they know me too well and I would have told them we were fine. We welcomed the company.
As we carried Elly upstairs to bed with her Pinky, she started squirming to get down. Marc put her down and she ran to get her other crocheted afghan that we have always called Greenie. I said, "You need Greenie too?" She grabbed it and said "Abby Blankie". This was the first time we have heard her call it that. In fact, she had never been too concerned if she had it to sleep with or not, just Pinky mattered. I do enjoy the messages from Heaven we get.
Thanks for all your prayers, comforting words, and support as we still mourn the loss of our precious Abrielle.
Friday, March 27, 2009
It has been 2 years since your brown eyes danced with life, but there are some things I want you to know~
You will always be my middle child, the filling in our family sandwich
You will always be Mady's little sister, her playmate and her shadow
You will always be Elly's big sister, even though you never got to hold her
You will always be my bravest, strongest, most adventurous girl
You will always be my Mommy's Girl
You will always be a Granddaughter, a Niece, a Cousin, and a Friend
You will always live so strong in our hearts that it will seem like it was just yesterday that you left
You will always hold a special place in my soul that can never be filled
You will always be the one to help me keep my faith, because without it, I won't see you again
You will always bring tears to my eyes at the very thought of you. I will not let those tears dry because it is in that pain and grief that you live the strongest
You will always be our Abrielle, no matter what. Just because time passes, nothing can take that away. You are not gone, of that I am sure. You have just gotten a head start to that beautiful gathering place we will all join you at.
I love you Abbers and miss you every day~
Hugs and Kisses ~
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Our little Abrielle loved to wear dress and hats, they were just fun for her. Needless to say, as you can tell by the picture, she definitely got her wear out of them. This one is a bit short, but it sure didn't matter to her. We always thought it was funny that she liked to wear dresses because she was far from lady-like. I always said she could easily have been a boy.
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Monday, March 23, 2009
This is what the Foundation is all about..."Making Life Brighter for Area Kids"
Friday, March 20, 2009
The glare from the camera makes it a little hard to read, so here is what it says,
"I'm think about you. It's hard to get you of my mind. I can't live without you."
I share this with everyone today for different reasons. One is for myself in my healing process. I know I have stated how I have dealt with blaming myself all this time. I think if I specifically named all the different aspects, the list would be really long, but I also carry my daughter's pain with me. I hurt because she hurts. I take the blame for her suffering too.
Another reason I share this is for the simple message of "Please Don't Drink and Drive".
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Thanks 5th Graders and Mrs Halley!
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
Please everyone, tell your loved ones your wishes to donate, so that you may save lives too.
Friday, March 13, 2009
Round one of "lip" application.
Waiting patiently for Sissy to make her look beautiful.
Ok, so maybe not so patiently.
More "lip". You can never have too much.
Purple eyeshadow is the favorite choice of both girls. (I'll have to fix that.)
Look how pretty we turned out after a makeup session with Sissy!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
We were able to get all the animals bagged up quicker than what I thought, thanks in part to the cards that Upward Bound made for us.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
Thanks for all your help Upward Bound students and I hope that all of you get the backs of your drivers licenses signed to become an organ donor.
Monday, March 9, 2009
There would just be a couple of words changed to make it perfect for us, plus Abby always called Mady "Sissy".
Here is Alan Jackson talking about the song.
Friday, March 6, 2009
Don't forget to come help us bag on Saturday night at 7!
Thursday, March 5, 2009
I think Elly might have had a little help drawing last night and it wasn't from Mady because we asked.
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Monday, March 2, 2009
Playing on the rings.
On the bar.
On the balance beam.
On the rope swing.
Abrielle with her award. She was so proud!
We lost Abby in the middle of the spring session and Mady made the decision that she did not want to do gymnastics any more. It was something they had done together and I understood. I was actually kind of relieved because I really didn't think I could go watch Abby's classmates without her there.